It is so hard for me not to believe in coincidence,

especially after what happened today.

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Being Independent

My ISTJ personality consists of 80% introvert,  which explains a bit why I don’t like working in groups. It’s not that I don’t like working with people, it’s just that I’m not compatible with most people. I may have a great leadership potential, but that doesn’t mean anything if it isn’t developed, right?

One of the biggest problem in my life is my poor self-esteem, which often leads me to all kinds of trouble. Reviewing my own self isn’t difficult, but being a better person is a different story. People told me to change, but how can I change when I don’t know what to change? I always try not to make any mistake. Still, it’s not rare for things to go awry and I don’t know what I did wrong.

Compared to the others, my abilities besides academics are completely average. I can play music instruments, but no more than that. I’m not an expert at anything besides mathematics and science. Even though I’m good at math, no one even bothers to ask me about lessons they don’t understand. I feel like I’m just being a last choice.

I have difficulty talking with people too. Maybe because I have different interests from them, but I tend to try to keep up the conservation as long as I can. Thus, it has become a habit until now, which I do unconsciously. Another one of my habit is speaking formally, almost to everyone.

My failure of talking with people is  the cause why I’m often seen being alone. I don’t feel lonely, in fact, though I’m happy when people start talking to me, instead that is what I call as being an independent self. I learnt how to stand out, or not to be afraid to do right things. When people get attached to their friends, I can work with many types of people or learn from them. Being independent doesn’t mean being selfish, but being flexible.

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The Very Beginning

As a starter, I would say writing is a paradox. For me, thinking about ideas or just finding one is quite easy. The problem is putting such ideas and nonexistent things into words. Not just ordinary words, but words which can be understood by people so they can be useful by whoever read my writings. And thus, I have so many ideas piling up in my head without ever being written,

Image result for head full of thoughts

–like that. Found the picture from Google.

Luckily this blogging excur opened in this year, when I enrolled this school as a new senior high school student. For the trial I wanted to choose English theatre and economy club, but God arranged some (un)fortunate incidents which made me couldn’t pick economy club. So instead, I chose English theatre and blogging-for the excur trial. At first I was sure I’m going to choose theatre, but I ended up here anyway. Because there is something I wanted to do but I could never focus to do it, which is writing. And now I have someone guiding me from the very beginning, plus I’m given time to write. I am certain I will not regret choosing this excur, and I will stay here for 3 years I’ll spend in this school.

eating bag of pinecones is also hard

Sometimes, making decisions are very hard. And often, starting something new isn’t less difficult. (Picture from What If? – Lunar Swimming)

So once again thank you for Ms. Deasi, because through her appealing lecturing I decided to choose this excur without doubt regardless of another choices (and thank you for the comment, I’m so happy tbh). I want to thank everyone too, especially those who interact with me, either rarely or often, in the past and present, virtually or reality. Because without you knowing, most of you have given me so much lessons and ideas to write, and just with a chance and a little encouragement, here I am, starting to write.

Through my writings, I wish that people can be inspired or entertained. People have their own story, and they can share it with anyone they want. Each story can be written, read, and/or understood from a different perspective, so I’d be happy if you share your opinion about my writing. Or you can request an article or fanfiction so I have more topics to post and fill up my blog.

Who is wise? Let them realize these things.   

Who is discerning? Let them understand.            -Hosea 14:9a

~Special thanks for Ms. Deasi and Q

With regards,

Originica